It was painful but... After the shock that I had when I learned about some thing, it made me realized that there is really nothing else I can do already. I don't have much regrets because I have shown how much I really do love him.
All else failed.
I only sense the loving him during his last day in Singapore.
Friday, I was quite happy and excited to return to office to work. Why? I want to meet my boss. He can temporary free me of my troubles.
There was this golf tournament which happened at the Orchid Country Club. The tournament is to raise funds for the needy union workers.
At first I was worried that my boss is not going to bring me there to help out. Luckily he brought me there.
I think he is damn zai. He is just an event secretary but he did so much!! Gosh I can't imagine the pressure that he had for the past few days. He totally rocks.
Anyway he fetched 3 girls (including myself). He went to chinatown and geylang to pick up goods first.
He drove dangerously fast.
I was sitting in front somemore. He speed! 130km/hour... Gosh totally freak me out.
He said he probably kana speeding ticket lo.
Anyway, the highlight of the day was... I rode the bungy with him.
He held his camera to shoot photos of the golfers while I drive the bungy.
Haha he said, "Fun not? Damn romantic right?"
Hahaha. Yup.
He totally reminds me of Charles, with a hint of Zhi Yang.
I received a phone call from SS. She said she want to send him off...
After I put down the call, my boss almost immediately know that the "him" was my ex.
He told me to go send him off. Before I left, boss told me, "Remember, don't cry ar :) ".
I did not cry when he left. I have mixed feelings at that moment.
I feel glad that he told me about some things and I could still trust him in the future.
However, I won't know how to treat him or view him as.
We can never be friends.
I guess, what happened, is sufficient for me to rest my mind and try to let him go bit by bit.
The day before, I was with him at his home. His mother told me that I deserve better. I teared, she teared. I told her I will miss her. Nai nai saw our actions. Held my hand and asked why did I cry, I told her I will miss her. She told me to visit her sometimes or call her...
With tears, I didn't nod.. What I thought was...
If I return, I am afraid that I want to be part of their family again.
I really love his family almost as much as I love him.
Post a Comment